I can't help myself from worrying,prior to the result comes out.

Abah had done his best this time,and I have never seen him this sombre,and I never felt this inferior.So far I'd rejected 5 offers,to my lack of interest towards such courses offered.

Every body told me to be strong,and yes, I am resilienting myself for this this time span..

I avoid going to former school,I didn't text my friends and in the same case I evade to reply their messages,I signed in to YM as invisible,I didn't reply any comment on friendster asking about my recent condition...because I am afraid of telling people of my unpredictable,erratic future..

I envy and of course happy for friends whom so lucky to be able to go to overseas.I wish I wasn't engrossed during last few months.Too busy aiming to sit on the driver seat.

And now,I'm counting days after days till it reaches 30 July for my destiny to speak.
Whatsoever agony that comes,I am prepared for the bloody worst.Wish me luck!